i just got a 100 on my photography midterm! woooooo... go meeeee!

That's when you came to me and said, "Wish I could prove I love you But does that mean I have to walk on water? When we are older you'll understand it's enough when I say so, and maybe some things are that simple."

i've been thinking so much about the past. my actions and the consequences, and how they reflected on my emotions, making me take more actions with consequences... and so on. but now i know what it is to "think before you speak", because all i do is think about the consequences to everything...
i've been painting this picture... i'll take a pic of it eventually and put it up. i'm way too lazy to right now.
i figured out the tattoo i want! matty is drawing it out, and it looks really pretty.
anything else? hmmm...
currently writing katya's letter! i took a break. it's very emotional.

i went to fright fest tonight. very fun! i was scared the entire time. stupid zombies and their loud can shaker things....

time, time, time... time for nothing.
yesterday i wasted my whole day waiting for my online midterm to be posted. i did the same today... she emailed everyone an hour ago letting us know it was postponed until next week. uh, annoying.
yesterday i wanted to go to the gym, get together my halloween costume, and do so much... but no.
everyone is getting on my nerves lately. it's that time of year! the cold, and that is where my happiness, and heart both decide to disappear until it is beautiful and warm.
i've saved up so much money for christmas presents, they are going to be good this year. i'm excited. i figure i'll give my mom my old ipod... and have it filled so she doesn't bother me about that and get her something else. she hates all my ideas.
and my dad.... who knows! hes so difficult. and matt.... DON'T GET ME STARTED ON THAT ONE.
sheesh, whatever. i'm gonna go play fifa (;

i love my birthday. i share it with so many amazing people.
vanessa at work had her birthday today too. everyone brought in food. we had 2 ice cream cakes, cupcakes, and music. it was so amazingly fun. i made 98 dollars. faaaaaabulousssssssss.
matthew bought me a body pillow and sprayed it with his cologne... it smells so good. then he got me FIFA 11! i was so happy (:
my mommy and dayy bought me doc martens. they are so bad ass. and they are so cool.
my granny gave me 100 dollars.
so this week i have 200 dollars towards car insurance. woooooo.

everything is amazing. i'm so happyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!

i'm doing so good in school... but bergen is just high school again. it's annoying and i really do hate it.
i haven't done any of my goals... i'm supposed to be 120 pounds by now. i have not dropped one pound.
yesterday i bought a new ipod... 160 GB! wooo! a classic. it's so pretty<3 and it's already almost full. matt is giving me his music too, but clearly i'm only going to put the stuff i like of his music on there.

my birthday is thursday! i'm so excited. but i'm really not doing anything for it. i might go to lips with a few friends. me and matt were going to go see phoenix, the band not the city, but all the seats are terrible... so we aren't wasting money on that. i feel so old... this is my last year as a teenager! i mean, that sounds insane. you turn 18, and you're considered an adult, but you're still a teenager. at 20, there is no teenager... it's just twenty.

where did you go?

i love autumn. visually, it's my second favorite, summer is my first... no matter what. but camping this weekend took a serious toll on me. i have not slept good in two weeks. something is bothering me, but idk what. i just want to sleep again.

after studying all week, today came, and on test day, i seem to forget everything. so i walk into work with my notebook to study in case it gets slow... i look over all the material and realized, i was familiar with it, and i knew it, but i had NONE memorized!!!! i spent the next 7 hours studying straight... and i think i faired well on the test. i got at least 70 points that i was able to figure out, and got the extra credit. but for the ones i narrowed down the answers on, or the few i guessed on, i must've gotten some of those right... i sure hope! hopefully i made my goal and got at least an 86. please, please, please!
sheesh, anthropology... now we are learning about current day/ past economics.... i hate economics...

but tomorrow i go camping! after logging attendance in the online history of photo class, picking up a mattress, finishing writing an essay, packing matt's car, and going to writing class... sheesh.

so i bought molly this little orange and blue ball... INDESTRUCTIBLE. so it's perfect for her! she broke through a basketball... i have no idea what this girl is doing. her teeth are horrifyingly sharp.

Just saying, I have the nicest boyfriend ever... and I used to hate him. Insane.
Silly me.

i have no idea how i got blessed with the prettiest poodle... personality-wise. she's gorgeous and all... but she doesn't really have a poodle body. she's just a big, husky lovebug, but she's perfect and all mine<3