one thing can ruin everything.




i'm going to take pictures of my other half over break. and make the best project ever. it wasn't assigned... but it doesnt need to be. it has to be done. i feel like a tool for not working as hard anymore. it's time to start caring again.

visual journal. assignment sixteen.

i shot some more self portraits, but I'm shooting more tonight, so I'm just going to bring t hem all in tomorrow and edit them.
i think they say a lot.
it feels like a Tuesday, so my biological clock is going NUTS.

also, i feel like i am doing bad in school right now. senoritis... it's really hitting hard. problem is, i don't care anymore. i only care that my mom will yell at me and dad will give me a "talk" that will take about 5 hours.
which stinks.
holocaust, human behavior, and prob and stat... all the good classes too! what the heck!

sheesh. but i'm happy! and i don't care!

i can't take all this good feeling! it's overcoming me. i'm drowning in my own happiness.
last night, i came home and i cried. cried and cried and cried and cried. i feel amazing. nothing could possibly bring me down.
everything is going right.

meet my prom dress!
i love it so much.

and these are just to show my momma later cause i forgot my flash-drive at home... gotta love photoshop

i've officially lifted my spirits!
i'm on top of my game this week, everything is getting done, and done perfectly.

the fencing dinner was nice and sweet. everyone had tons of fun... i think. i did, at least. everyone looked so nice being all spiffy. i love seeing people when they look their best. it's adorable.
after i went over a friend's house with a couple friends and played cards and just laughed. it was nice... it's always nice.

tomorrow i get to miss school allllllll day for a lovely photo trip! it's going to be lovely.

there are only a few things i'm SUPER excited for.
bamboozle i'm only going to be at a few hours. i'm only going for 10 bands... and i'm basically positive they will all play around the same time.
the city to see Portugal. the man. uhhhhh, hellooooOOoOoo... can i say anymore?
prom is just going to be fun with friends.
no idea what's up with mdw... but i got invited down the shore... but i have a feeling that's not the kind of memorial day weekend i would enjoy.
GOING TO GEORGIA WITH THE FAB DANA?! that'll just be awesome!
and finally attending the college i have been so excited for... for half a year... excitement!

also, sonic is closed until further notice! we have lost power... meaning we lost all of our food too... and have had a fire... all in one week! how does that happen! my poor manager is always there and always sounds so tired. i feel so bad for him and call him just to cheer him up, only because i think he's getting bored of playing cards and sitting in the dark with no food.
but this is good news and bad news for me... good news is no work! bad news... no money... i guess i have to take the good with the bad though.

...spring starts saturday... i have never been this excited!!!!!!
so saturday i will be buying my prom dress. i hope i find the perfect one! otherwise i'll probably give up. but i'll have roxanne and matty to help guide me to the perfect one.


and it's my mother's birthday! i love you, mommy!

so about them giant jellies...

is it just me... or is this NUTS!?!?!
6 1/2 FEET. 450 POUNDS. now that's a jellyfish!
but they're just viewed as a problem to the locals in japan... but i can see why i guess. there is no real use for them. they can only be used for fish food and snacks... but still! they are so pretty and cool looking!

okay, okay.
i'm all over the place with my moods. i'm back to okay though. it just doesnt seem to have a consistancy. i need to find a balance.

i just fell back into my hole.
i've had two tests so far... which were terrible.
peter made me cry. (he wasn't trying to... it was a joke but it was already a bad day.)
my mom messed up my scholarship papers.
mrs shue isnt there to help me fix them.
i had a terrible lunch.
and my english won't get done because i didnt finish reading the book in one night or finish doing the questions.
screw it ):

i just want to sleep.

ALSO

my bad attitude is gone. my 'i don't care about anything but college' attitude is gone.
i'm so happy!

visual journal. assignment fifteen.

freeeeeeeeeeeee topic.
well for this project, I've STARTED... but hated everything I've done. I'm going to shoot tonight and throughout the weekend to make up for the lost time...
so FAR ...
I'm planning on using water everywhere (pingry pictures really influenced me!)
my basement, which is completely cluttered
my neighbor's yard, which is full of life, but no one keeps it under control (hopefully they won't mind (: )
this lonely street by my house
and a box.

i HOPE they turn out well. I'm not sure how i should dress or look in each, but i suppose I'll wing that with the way i feel and the mood i think each picture should have. a picture speaks a thousand words, right?

and of course molly and misty might show up in a few pictures.... but that MUST be a given.

feeling TONS better... really upset i missed all the sunshine though... it was shorts/dresses, fruit, and running weather... and i basically missed it all.... which is now plainly upsetting.
I'M COMING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW! so jesse can FINALLY stop texting me in the middle of the day saying i suck. )': but i know its cause he misses me:D

butttt i can almost eat real food again(: can't wait to eat humus with pita bread... peaches... pb&j... WHITE CASTLE... helloooooo.
and i cannot wait to start running again.
or dressing nice again.
OR ahhhh anything. my mood is so much better. i am so happy.

i feel like my head is so big and about to roll off my shoulders.

there is a 99.999999999999999999% chance i will not be in school tomorrow. i randomly got the stomach virus after eating peach-os and a twix last night.... i also have managed to resprain my ankle.... aka not a good sunday...
i was supposed to go to church today too...

and! matty was supposed to come over today and make me food and play ps3 with me )': but i don't want him sick.

i shot for photo anyway. i think they came out well. they look nice.

visual journal. assignment fourteen.

some people think photography is not a real art. agree or not and why.

photography is not in the same exact realm as a painting to me, but it is a form of art. to be a good photographer you must be able to capture an image and change it to your own creative feeling. that is what makes you an artist. being able to create something to fit your own ideals.
photography does deserve space in a museum or gallery. for the people who work hard to achieve something, they deserve to be recognized for their work as well.