i have

never been so lost. i'm a wreck.
maybe i will do what vasa said and throw myself into work.

i really don't want you to go.

this year

continuously gets worse.
i just want to move away so i never have to see your face again.

it feels like the pain will never stop.
i can't focus on anything. no wonder i'm doing bad in school.
i just want to sleep the break away.

TODAY!

i got my new puppy! she's completely black and 8 weeks old.
although she wants to eat everything... she's a good dog!
misty is not happy about this though... she is ignoring us thinking we betrayed her... we just want misty's traits to rub off on our next puppygirl so she is as good as misty!

visual journal. assignment eight.

freeeee topic!
wellwellwell, christmas is coming up and i'm thinking i'll take pictures of the family. and all the food we will be cooking!
so excited to eat my brains out.

also, misty will be in her little christmas costume, antlers, a bow on her tail and a little bow on her head.
and of course we'll trim her and give her a bath and paint her nails!
we'll have to get pictures of that!

i dont get this next assignment either. i TRIED to focus on it, but i'll just wait until vasa explains it to me. i can't seem to read things and understand them when they're about an assignment.
hmmmmm...



this weekend isn't gonna be good either... i just feel it...aadfkladflafafgxdjkvgsrgv
i'm in a strange mood today too. i just want to curl up in a ball with misty and watch netflix...

college is so scarey...
applications are paper monsters...
i think i'll just ask my english teachers for help on my essays... i feel like they're going to swallow me whole.
katya told me i would cry from stress. and she was completly right.
now that it's out of my system, time to get back to work....

visual journal. assignment seven.

what is good art?
there is no such thing as a piece of art that is "good" to everyone.
everyone has different perceptions on what they think is "good". to some it may be precise and "perfect", while to others "good" art is plainly what is appealing to the eyes.
good art is different to everyone.

to me, good art is what i find appealing. art doesnt have to be perfect, it doesn't have to look like something. if i think it is interesting or beautiful i will consider it art.

visual journal. assignment six.

should the government control art?
yes. not completely but to a point.
when the artist begins threatening someone's life, saying they will kill them or portraying the murder of someone, i believe it should be censored.
example: Eminem's song Kim.
this song was the sounds of eminem killing his (now) ex wife for cheating on him with a member of ICP. it was disgusting and vulgar.
art may be created to let out the artist's feelings and innerthoughts, but when it scares someone by threatening their lives.
BUT, if someone just wants to create something in a pure way, the government should not be involved.